About Me

!nversed Poignancy!

...I am an eclectic amalgamation of many seemingly paradoxical things. This can be exemplified in both my seemingly endless persistance on many topics and arguments, as well as my careful cautiousness on other topics and arguments. This is largely due to how astute I am of the topic: more knowledge, more persistant; less knowledge, obviously more cautious. I also have times of obsessive compulsions regarding certain things (mostly just my thoughts, however)...

Life and Death

!nversed Poignancy!

Life

An assembly

Possibly impossible

Perfectly interchangeable..

Death

That lives most upright

Beyond the unspoken

Neither a squiggle nor a quibble..

She and Me

!nversed Poignancy!

She

A daffodil

Tyrannizer of me

Breaking the colors of dusk!..

Me

The rising sun

Infringed with violations

The impurity in the salt..

Love and Poetry!

!nversed Poignancy!

Love

A puerile desire

Buried in the heart

Never leaves..

Poetry

Sentimentally melodramatic

Cursively recursive

My thoughts idiotic!

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My thoughts leave
In mute protest
Of being confused
Until am left with
A blank expression

-!nversed Poignancy!
I was inspired to write this blog after reading a news feature in today's (11.12. 09) Times of India. The fast undertaken by the TRS Chief, K. Chandrasekhar Rao that led to deterioration of his condition, causing threat to his life, made the Centre to take a late night decision of splitting Andhra Pradesh to carve out a separate state,Telengana.


Let us first have a look at the history of some "fasts" that had taken place in the past. Apart from being called "The Father of The Nation", Mahatma Gandhi may conveniently termed as the "Father of Fasts", who used it as a weapon. Of course, before him, it was the revolutionary, Jatin Das who gave up his life in Lahore Jail as a prisoner of the British Government, after going on a hunger strike from July 13 to Sep 13, 1929. His death left a deep impact on the minds of the Indian youth to start a new war of violent protest against the British government.

In 1932 Gandhiji went on a 'fast', protesting against the "Communal Award" of colonial British rulers to give separate representation to the "untouchables" in Provincial Legislatures, that led to Poona Pact which made the untouchable leaders to renounce separate representation. In 1943, Gandhiji undertook a fast for twenty one days as a "penance for deadlock" between the Viceroy & Indian leaders. It became a turning point in India's struggle for freedom.

After independence, the first person who gave up his life in a hunger strike was the Gandhian leader, Potti Sriramulu. He began his "fast" on Oct 19, 1952 protesting against the Centre's indifference to the demand for a separate Andhra Pradesh & succumbed to it on Dec 15,1952. His death led to violent turmoil resulting in the creation of Andhra Pradesh.

In the recent past, Mamta Bannerjee's hunger strike for 25 days against land acquisition in West Bengal, changed the colour of Bengal politics forcing the CPM to see red.

It is a well known fact that Mahatma Gandhi mostly used this weapon of "fast" as a means for self purification. He was magnanimous enough to hold himself responsible if anything went wrong & took it unto himself to atone for it by undertaking a "fast". But can the leaders of today honestly claim that their "fasts" are that, what appear to our naked eyes or there is anything more to it which we, the general public are not capable enough to perceive? Can they honestly say that their "fasts" are not less for the "cause" & more for scoring a point or to gain political mileage over their political rivals? How is it that, if there is no problem in creating a separate state now, what prevented the Centre to wait for decades, until a certain K.C.Rao staged an indefinite fast unto death? Honestly, I don't know. Can anybody among my friends, please tell me? .
Apparently I'm not a big fan of posting "Thoughts for the day" as such, but, today as "class I threw ExceptionOfTotalOutOfOrderness ;" I just wanted to throw it out..:P
And here we go!...

Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But, it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!

Well, until recently I had never thought about love,love-life, life with love,love without life..so on so forth of all the combinautrics that can be captured with these symbols of alphabets. However, just about a couple of days ago I was provoked [Well I mean provoked in terms of literature and mind flow :P] by a intruiging quote by a friend of mine, which basically involved the sophistications of quibbles with respect to why a person closest to you always hurts (in terms of betrayal) more than anyother jack-ass on this earth!. I felt that I would be able to put some thought flow on this and thus the prioritization factors earned it a place on my blog! [tadaan!]

Let begin it with a sense of uninitiation.Why is it that the intensity of hurt in betrayal is directly proportional to the love we had. Why does betrayal hurt so much, so much so that some people lose desire to love?. (PS : Well, the term "love" though through a lot of impurities and adulteration, [yeah, could mean adult-err-ation too :P ] has taken a different meaning oflate. But, the love that I am talking about can be of any form need not necessarily be the a love that defines a gender-binding realtionships)

When we love someone, that person becomes our own. There is always a sense of ownership. That is why one feels angry if one's loved one gets more involved with somebody else more than necessary. The sense of ownership and envy are essential to the process of love. It is easy to say that when you love someone, give him or her freedom, space and so on. But does that ever happen? That does not happen because we are asking for equal or more commitment from our loved one compared to what we give. I care so much for you; you are also supposed to care equally. I never hurt you; you are also not supposed to hurt me. We develop some kind of unsaid understanding. As the understanding becomes stronger, love becomes passionate and stronger. We all behave in this way in our life. Our loyalty to our school, our family, our country all comes out of this sense of commitment.

In love, the mind and the heart- logical and emotional feelings all are focused only on your object of love. It is an obsession when you think of nothing else but your loved one. This is main cause of pain after betrayal. Because you never could believe that your loved one could betray you. You had considered them to be far better and lovable than anybody else. How could he/she could this to me? That question keeps hammering your mind and you do not get any answer.

The grief of separation is equally strong. Your existence depended on your loved one and now he/she is no more there with you. That pain of separation is difficult to define in words. To avoid thinking about the loved one, people try many methods- join some group, do other activities, make new friends, and so on, but if the love was strong the person may remain a loner in a big crowd, because they have lost the foundation on which their life was being built.
For once I lost myself in her hand-ofF,
All my prowess' got diluted, what remained is just an iotA.
To and fro did my heart hubbub quibbling between a treat and a retreaT.
Ah!, I just got myself melted onto hers, was it an heaven that I saw from abscissA?
Lo!, or was it just another dream about my princess damseL?

Altercations continued. This time between her eyes and mine; Both in a perfect galA!
"Take me by hand darling,I am all yours"- did I hear her say thaT?
Tremors hit my hands,quakes shook my hearT,
Race had begun and my clutters began its clutters like a call stuck pageR
Ahoy! would I be really succesful? - would she accept my heart's pleA?
Coyish cabrioles I made, hoping towards her to utter my three worded macaroniC
Trusting with deep trusts that she would be mine and me her sweeT.
"I love you dear, Do you love me too?"- whispered I-extending the rose,more like an alibI.
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"Ouch!!, that hurt" she said, blood oozed out of her palm[thorns had pricked], forming a capricciO..
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"Never mind, Sir..I will take care, I am her maN"
...Said an obscure voice from behind. And thus fell my stillborn attraction into fatality...






Foot Note :
Intended meanings of italicized words.

1.Abscissa : from a distance
2.Pager : A small device (like cellular phone) that vibrates to inform the wearer about a text message.
3.Macaronic : denoting a language, specially burlesque verses.
4.Alibi : an excuse
5. Capriccio : A painting representing mixture of colors and imagination.

[ These meanings are the first meanings of the words' usage which I had learnt as a part of my curriculum. If there is any mistake please let me know. Since I have not verified them with a standard dictionary ]



Prompted at Acrostic Only

Watching the tainted sky,
Meandering from crimson to black.
.I decipher me.
Meandering from crimson to black,
Watching the tainted sky.

Fragile were my life's canoes,
Restless were my will's torments.
It was life at hell for me..and I stood there gazing at nothingness.
..(But)
Ever since I met you O' dear pal,
Neither sorrows nor gloom did I meet.
Darkness was just a mirage, and
Strength was the shadow that followed me.
..(As)
Humanity..is for humans,
Integrity..for the immaculate,
Perpetuity is for paeans;
...Friendship..is for the soul in me and the friendship in me is for YOU..!
Tief in der Augen sah ich die Woerter reinkommen..
"Ich liebe dich gern. Liebst du mir auch? Heiratest du mich?"
waren die Musik, die sie gespielt ..

Und mit ihnen gemeinsam die Symphonien von
meinem Herzen karoke

"Oh lieben babe, deine Aussicht!
Du siehst sehr gut aus!
Bist du sehr gut aus Herz auch!" ..

Die karoke sich Melodie, die Melodie zu Harmonie ..
Unsere Worte so, dass ein Orchester
strummed die Saiten von unseren Herzen ..

Zum ersten Mal, unsere Herzen erfüllt,
schüttelte Hände und ihre Claps waren
nur ein fruchtig-Loops in unserem beethoven ..

Ich sehe dich und du siehst,
du in meinen Augen ..
Und im Hintergrund der Chor pfiff leise

Ich liebe dich tief.
Ohne dich kann ich nicht mehr lebenDu bist meine erste Liebe.
Seit ich dich gesehen habe kann ich nicht mehr essen und trinken!
Liebst du mich?

Und vor unseren Augen,
Hände und Lippen verschmolzen ..
Das Lied wurde eingeschaltet,
und die musikalische Aufnahme toed Spitze des Genres

und was wit Verse voller "Liebe", "Lieben" und "uns" nun in

Gott! Er ist wie ein vampire.Ich hasse ihn.Ich mag nie mit ihm sprechen Er ist so dumm.

wie diese äußerst geizig doubtfire propped aus dem Satan in dir ..

Die Musik wurde stumm geschaltet, die Verse hat schräg ..
Ich habe nur gehört, jemand sagen, zu meinen Eltern, dass ..
"Es tut mir leid das zu sagen dass ihr Sohn oder Tochter lebt nicht mehr.Er ist tot"

und im Zweifel, dass und in meinem Pier starb unsere Liebe und Wahrheit :-(


Just a lame trial at Poetry in German.
You can see an amateur translation by Google- here.

You and me...

Scribbled by Bharath On December 08, 2007 0 Thoughts have been Sprinkled!, Your Take?
You got to hold on
love is soon
moving in
you know in your soul
that you have committed no sin

Just wait and see
what joy love will bring
it will make your
heart sing

You must believe in fate
it is never too late
soon love will be flowing
like melting ice in the spring

You've got to give it all
there is no time
to be lying on the ground
feeling shot down


You've got to keep on looking
you never know
what will show
don't be so slow
free your mind
and the rest will follow
and your life will turn
into what it is
supposed to be
and you will feel
so good forever
but you must want it
to happen
nobody can ever
do it for you

You must never give up
your hope
and never choose
the rope
as the last way out
because there is love
to be found
just take a look around
and you will finally
find a partner
to share your life


You've got to hold on
it is not easy
but you have to be
very strong
in your lonely heart

Beacon..

Scribbled by Bharath On December 08, 2007 0 Thoughts have been Sprinkled!, Your Take?
Watch the sky above you
and prepare to die
because they are closing in
willing to erase
the whole human race
just for the pleasure of it

Ready or not
they won't stop
we have already let them in

People call them
flying saucers
but that is a big lie
they are deadly weapons in the sky
and there is no place to hide

Have you not heard
the stories about the people
they took away
for medical experiments and pregnancy
and when they came back to earth
they had completely lost their brain
and went totally insane

Watch the sky above you
they are circling into smaller circles
watch the sky closely above you
they will soon dive for their prey
which is you and me

We can move in all our military forces
but still we would look like horses
the crafts have landed everywhere
and we can all feel that clean fear
that the end is near
so say the Generals
and for God's sake give us more guns
rockets bombs artillery
and laser canons just for safety
then maybe we can force them away
so long my friend
Tellus is gone

Sun..

Scribbled by Bharath On December 08, 2007 0 Thoughts have been Sprinkled!, Your Take?
It is a bright day
and I have just finished
my last pray
what have I done
and what will come
at the end of the road ahead

Sun Sun I wish
I could run
Sun Sun I am your son

It is a dark night
and nothing feels right
where have you gone
I feel like well done
inside this strange room
they say it is my home

Sun Sun I wish
I could run
Sun Sun don't forget your son


It is a clear morning
time has come
and I have to pay
for the things that they say
when I will be lead
into that fear hall of justice
where they serve us all

Sun Sun I wish
I could run
Sun Sun I am there soon

It is a wonderful day
everything feels OK
for once in my life
I am not afraid anymore
I know now
that my soul is at home
Sun Sun here I am

What can i?

Scribbled by Bharath On November 08, 2007 0 Thoughts have been Sprinkled!, Your Take?
It is only a simple trial
what do I really care
I have no fear

Guilty not guilty
I am an innocent man
in a controlled land

The jury is set
the answer will come
I have to be strong
in my heart

Here they come
I hope they understand
that I have done no wrong
against anyone

Ha Ha all raise
now it is time to pay
this is your judgement day

Here it comes
you are sentenced to Death
because you have shown no regret
so say we all

Tomorrow at sun rise
you will swing from the old oak tree
up at Gallows point

Guilty not guilty
I am an innocent man
but they turned me down
completely

Tonight there will come some tears
but they will never be seen
because they are inside
guilty I was
at least so they said
but I am not afraid

I know..

Scribbled by Bharath On November 08, 2007 0 Thoughts have been Sprinkled!, Your Take?
I know what you are thinking
but not what you are drinking
come on over here
and we can share

I can not move
but I can feel the groove
shy shy that is what I am

I know what you want
but not how to give it
come on baby give me a shot
you can see that I have a lot

I can not speak
but I know how to teach
shy shy that is what I am

I know what you need
but not how to show it
come on baby give me your hand
and I will make you understand

I can not play
but I know the game
shy shy that is what I am

I know that you are lonely
but not how to explain it properly
come on baby open up and smile
and I will give you my best company
even if I am a little bit shy

I know that you need me
but not how to give you my heart
in a way that makes you understand
that I will never let you down
please take the first step
because I am a little bit shy
but I will never make you sad
or cry

Bye Bye!

Scribbled by Bharath On October 08, 2007 0 Thoughts have been Sprinkled!, Your Take?
Bye bye hard life
I am giving in
running dope
it takes too much
always being
two steps ahead of
the fucking police
now I am relaxing
drinking fine wine
sponsored by my
Swiss bank account

Above the law
it is fun
not to be on the run

Bye bye hard life
I am giving in
it takes too much
to be talking on the phone
with people who can not
get enough
now I am going to rest
in my expensive
royal stressless
I am going to lighten
my big joint
and talk with my friends
about the point
in getting stoned
which is not wrong
because we are
above the law

Bye bye hard life
I am giving in
it takes too much
to always be so tough
now it is time
to slow down
and to travel around
the whole Earth
and try to find
a beautiful girl who can
help me rule my world
it is fun
to be above the law
That good melody
playing on the radio
makes me remember
how you died so suddenly
last September
without saying goodbye
or farewell
to anyone

Driving fast
even if you knew
it could not last

All summer long
you were playing around
with no fear in your eyes
trying to get the most
telling us all those lies
about how daring and tough
you could be behind
the long hood on your sports car

You never knew
when it was time
to say no
to all that cheap speed
and snow
you loved to snort
and at last you had to go
in a stupid car crash

Oh my friend
I wonder
when we will meet again
and get the time
to do all the things
we can be able to
someday soon my old friend
you don't have to walk alone
I will meet you
in the twilight zone

That good melody
makes you remain forever
in my mind
but I still miss you so
it was for sure a great tragedy
to your family and us
who were forced to stay behind
with great sorrow
and old pictures of a friend
who went away for good
The worst thing that
ever happened to me
I cannot tell
but I can feel
that there has been
something going on
that I have not been
aware of
my mind is locked
on the wrong course
and I am heading
against nowhere
with no meaning in
my life

Round and round
no meaning
ever to be found


The worst thing that
ever happened to us
it was the day
when somebody decided
to mislead our thoughts
so that we got lost
from the right path
and the purpose
was to get in command
and have full control
over the world
and those who are
living here
and most of all
they want to control
the way
we speak our words


The worst thing that
ever happened to me
was that they took away
my ability to see
and my understanding
of what it is like
to be free
but I know in my soul
that there is a way
to be found
and I will never give up
trying to find a way
back to my real self
because there is
something missing
and I want to have
it returned
to its right place
where it belongs
from the day I was born
I am feeling so lonely
in my heart today
we got nothing to say
or do anyway
I am feeling so old
in my heart today
broken time
no more baby
I can't stay here
with you

I am feeling
nothing
I am feeling

I am feeling so poor
in my heart today
we got nothing to say
or do anyway
I just want to go far faraway
but not with you
by my side baby
I will find a new life
someplace
and make everything better
I don't love you any more


I am feeling so empty
in my heart today
we got nothing to say
or share anymore
I can't find any trace of love
which I could build something
lasting and good upon
there is really nothing
left inside

I am feeling so insecure
in my heart today
we got nothing more
to give or receive
and I really doubt
that we ever will find
a way back
so therefor it is best for us
that I walk away today


I am feeling so sad
in my heart today
we got nothing to say
or do anyway
I am feeling bad
but the best for us to do
is to go separate ways
since there is no more
love to be found
I don't care no more

I am feeling so cold
in my heart today
we got nothing to say
or do anyway
I am only feeling gloomy
and there is nothing else to say
our relationship is truly doomed
but there is nothing
we can do
I am feeling nothing
I am truly sorry
It is a tragedy
but you cannot see
what life has turned you into
it is a tragedy
because I once loved you
you were my girl
and now
no one wants you

Searching for something
that can not be found
the only way is down

It is a tragedy
but you cannot see
what your lifestyle
has been doing to you
it is a tragedy
because people used to like you
and now they hate
the smallest sight of you

It is a tragedy
but you cannot see
what you have done to yourself
you thought you were a queen
and now you are locked
in the worst of dreams

It is a tragedy
that no one wants to let you out
but you can blame only yourself
that nobody wants to help you again
you have no friends left
the only way is down
you are burned completely out
from all that speed
and all those fancy colorful pills
and all those men
you went home with

We Dont!

Scribbled by Bharath On July 08, 2007 0 Thoughts have been Sprinkled!, Your Take?
Sincerity is something
that we don't need
because no one is capable
of telling the truth
we are too afraid
to give ourselves
to someone else
who can you ask
when no one wants to know

Who can you tell
when nobody
believes it anyway

Sincerity is something
that no one knows
but people have heard
that there was a time
many years ago
if you looked high and low
and were lucky
you could find one or two alive
that would believe in you
but now there is
no one to be found

Sincerity is something
that we once had
but we did not understand
what we had in our hands
so we threw it away
but we need it so today
because nobody can come close
to anyone no more
everybody lives behind
bolted doors
waiting for something
good to happen
but nothing will ever change
because sincerity has gone away
pray that you will find it
some wonderful day
so you can get a good
and normal life
that you can be real proud of
until the day you die
and reach the sky
What is it coming to
when are things going to change
why can something like those lies
turn everything upside down
who can give me the answer
to be or not to be
living is not so easy as it seems

What is going on around here
why does not anybody take care
is it because there is nothing
left to be shared
I am trying to set my soul free
so it can help me to get out
of this human playground
I feel that I have gone
too many rounds

What can we do with this problem
I don't have the answer book
but one thing is sure
we have to find the right way
but the map is hidden
and don't you listen when somebody tells you
that it is forbidden to look
and to try to find the way
I am telling you the truth when I say
Self Consciousness is the only way
start today
with trying to find your real self
and soon you will find the map
that will make you understand
why man is man
and that there is a great plan
with planet Tellus
and most of all with man

What is it coming to
when will we be alive and free
where can the right place be
so we can understand what we see
before we destroy everything
in our world mind and life
what is it coming to
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